Glancing down, Hannah noticed the little flashing light signaling that she has a message. For some unknown reason her hand had a slight tremble as she reached for the phone. You’re being silly, she thought. There is no reason to be nervous. It isn’t like it is an official date. Just a chance for us to talk about how he is willing to betray his best friend by kissing me….okay, that train of thought is not helping my nerves at all!
Inhaling deeply in an effort to calm herself down, Hannah quickly opened the message to see what Ryuusuke had to say.
[Great! Glad you’re free. Maybe we can continue from where we left off
Tonight. Joking. ;P We’ll just talk tomorrow. Let’s meet at the station
at 12:00. Is it okay? Can’t wait to see you again. Until tomorrow. Baby. ^_-]
If she was a cartoon character, Hannah was sure steam would be rising off her face right now. Would every conversation with Ryuusuke be this embarrassing?
She quickly sent a reply confirming the meeting time and to lightly scold him for being a pervert. Placing the phone down, Hannah looked up at her friends and let a huge smile cross her face. “Who wants to go to karaoke to celebrate my pseudo date tomorrow?”
“Oh oh me!” Mika was practically bouncing in her seat.
Sam rolled her eyes but there was an amused look in her eyes. “You always want to go to. But,” she continued before Mika could attempt to defend herself. “It sounds fun. Let’s go.”
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“Yeah girls! Sing it!”
They left the restaurant about an hour ago and went straight to karaoke to release all the tension of the past two weeks. Although it has been rough, things were starting to look up.
At the moment Mika and Sam were in the middle of singing a cheesy romantic duet while Hannah played the ‘adoring audience.’ But she was pulled out of the fantasy by a subtle vibration in her pocket.
Huh? She thought. Who could that be? Ryuusuke? But why would he be mailing me now?
Digging through her pocket, she finally managed to pull out her phone. As soon as she glanced at the email address, Hannah felt herself pale in shock and slight fear.
Mamoru! Why us he mailing me? Don’t tell me Ryuusuke told him about what happened. If he did, he’ll pay when I see him tomorrow!
Apprehensive, Hannah quickly opened the message; she wanted to get the pain over as soon as possible.
[Long time no see! ^^ How are you? Thank you for your hard work. How
was work today? What are you doing? What will you do tomorrow?]
Happiness and dread filled Hannah all at once. She was glad Mamoru actually mailed her for no reason at all and was making a slight effort to strengthen their relationship. A little attention is all she ever wanted from him.
But she knew that this new Mamoru wouldn’t last. As soon as she tells him about Ryuusuke, she was positive he’ll shut down. He never liked it when Hannah mentioned other men around him. However, she had to tell him; not telling him would only make things worse. Mamoru deserved to know the truth immediately instead of having his friends stab him in the back. For all the pain that he has caused her, he wasn’t a bad person.
{Yes, it has been awhile. I am fine. How are you? You must be busy.
My work was okay. How was yours? Now I am at karaoke with Mika
and Sam. How about you? Oh… tomorrow Ryuusuke and I will have
lunch together. What will you do tomorrow?}
Her thumb hovered over the send button. Should I send this? I don’t want to hurt him. But…. With a slight shake of her head, Hannah pressed send. I’m sorry Mamoru. But I can’t lie to you anymore.
She moved to slide her phone back into her pocket when she felt it buzz to life once again. A wave of nausea swept through her. Mamoru never replied that quickly unless he was excited or upset about something. And she was pretty sure that this wasn’t a message sent out of excitement.
[You’re meet Ryuusuke tomorrow? Oh. When did you decide to date?]
The nausea increased until Hannah was sure she was going to throw up. Although they were not dating, she had always been loyal to Mamoru, even when he didn’t deserve it. She never thought that she’d be able to let go of him. But now that she has started to distance herself, the idea that she could hurt Mamoru made her ill.
{We’re not dating. We are just meeting to talk. He… he wants me to
be his girlfriend. I haven’t said yes or no yet.}
Hannah was certain Mamoru wouldn’t rely to that message, but once again she was wrong about him. This time she wished that she was right.
{Ryuusuke….. he is a good person. He’d be good for you. I think you could
be happy with Ryuusuke.]
Hot, almost scalding tears filled her eyes. Slipping out of the karaoke room, Hannah flopped down onto the bench in the hallway and let the tears fall.
“All that talk about you finally fighting for me was bullshit,” she sobbed to herself. “I thought you had changed; that you really loved me. But I guess not if you are going to hand me to your best friend. And I was going to tell him no.” Slowly she wrapped her arms around herself and tucked her chin to her chest to comfort herself. “I hate you Mamoru,” she whispered through the sobs. “I hate you so much.”
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